Saneville

Wed, 21 May 2008 20:56:21 GMT

Damn it is busy right now, I never thought I would be doing so many concerts in such a short time. It is good money though so I wish it would continue, but I know that wont happen.

Wow, I am getting full guess I can't eat a tub of potatoes yet, I have had the flu for the past few days and on top of that I bruised my shoulder. I still haven't gotten my full appetite back and I am still tired and sore, also dehydrated. So basically I hurt all over.

Kelly is off in Nevada, we don't do well apart... I can't wait till she gets back, I basically am a wreck without her. At the very least maybe I can get a massage. My neck is so sore from being dehydrated it suuuuuuuucks so much. That and my bed blows donkey butt.

Update

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 01:36:13 GMT

So I have completed this years Trivia and have found that I am awesome again lol. We got 58th place. Go team Robot Hause!!!! hehehe

Still playing Warcrack, I am a lvl 64 now and I got permission to get to lvl 70 without waiting for Kelly, cause sometimes she stops playing for a bit.

Kelly is starting to like Gentle Giant which is cool, my first girl friend that ever liked my music. :)

GG, Kelly, Kamelot

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 21:29:34 GMT

So I found this cute little video of Gentle Giant, the music video was made much much later than the music it is called - Isn't It Quiet and Cold. Watch it :) you will like it I think, that is if you like the Beatles. Anyways I posted it up on Myspace. It is a good intro to what Gentle Giant is. One of there easier listens.

I miss Kelly a lot, but I found that if I just stay up really late and pass out from exaustion and not take a nap, I can sleep at night just fine. :)
I love her, I love her a lot... so much so that I would let her go if she wanted, and as long as she got someone good, I would not be happy but ok with it. I just want to see her excell at everything... God I miss her, her laugh, her smile, her elephant noise she makes to amuse me. Everything...

Kamelot is coming back close to me, I am going to go again. What a fantastic band! They put on a great show.

My Blackhawks are out of the playoffs.

I have to go to work tonight yet. It sucks.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 04:27:07 GMT

So I did it, I crumbled under the pressure again. I got a facebook... and it aint perdy. But it is there, I believe you will find me under the name Arnithus Belrotha lol long story. Basically I gave my Warcraft character a last name and signed in as him and posted pictures of myself. I basically look as good as a blood elf. I am sexy *pose* I am studly *strips* *flex*

In other news, my dear Chicago Blackhawks lost to the fucking Red Wings again... and now my playoff dreams for them this year have ended. Though we have a bright future in Toews (pronounced Taves) and Kane (pronounced Cane). With these two young guns and if we do the following: get Goalie (Starter or backup for Lalime) get 1 new star in the forward position both on free agiency. Get rid of the dead weight that is Kabi (G) Replace Havlet with a healthy star (F) we will be great and in the playoffs with a good chance to get a cup run. Or atleast enough respect to have players return to my favorite team.

I'm addicted to Warcraft

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 04:20:00 GMT

So I have been playing World of Warcraft from... November. And I can't stop playing. I am now a lvl 51 fire/frost mage with aspirations for an undead mount and to reach lvl 70. You can check my myspace pics for my main character Arnithus. I have others, but they never seem to get to far. Life is going good people, I hope it is going the same for you.

Updating Myspace Yet

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 21:33:31 GMT

I have added pics of my addiction of warcraft and a few pics of da kelly and me. And after that... ummm life is good still adjusting to not having to worry about money as much once the next check comes in and I'll start paying my official way in my lot in life. Then I can start paying the rents back... finally :)

Cabbage Poot! .... YAY!!!

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 18:44:08 GMT

If you ever had a chance I recommend that you read I luv Halloween an american made manga. It is teh shit.

On a side note, my birthday is coming up :) I will stab the date with a fun stick. Because I will do nothing that day!! lol It is about time that I have a complete day off. I need sleep, a lot of it. Just to catch up. I am hungry and am thinking about making me some hamburger helper for starters and finish off with some peas and corn :) It is to easy to make soup from a can lol.

Slow Updates

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 20:08:12 GMT

Test, test, test... yes I am alive. Back again for another go. I have internets for atleast 2 years here at the same address. I now live in Rothschild WI. Updated info in Myspace (journal) and last.fm (About me section) I'll be doing a bigger update to myspace and this page later.
here are the two links incase ya'll need them.

http://www.last.fm/user/Nens/
http://www.myspace.com/j_nens

Interesting Song Lyric

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 07:37:19 GMT

Coheed And Cambria - Once Upon Your Dead Body

If hello could only drop its "o"
And it stayed in the front doors way
Of your home, would you live there still?
Could that make you everything I hate?
Wait...

Do you remember why you did it? (No I don't)
Do you remember why she left?

No, I hope you die right now.
Will you drink my chemical?

Is there price to burn this paradise?
Where you left all parts that hurt to mend
If I don't stay awake
Will she come here again?
For my wish of only one last kiss

Do you remember why you did it? (No I don't)
Do you remember why she left? (Cause you did what you thought with your friend)
Do you remember why you did it?
Do you remember why she left?

No, I hope you die right now.
Will you drink my chemical?
If you cry outloud it will only make me fell to good
No, I hope you die right now.
Will you drink my chemical?
And if you cry outloud it will only make me fell to good
I hope you die right now.
Will you drink my chemical?
And if you cry outloud it will only make me fell to good

I hope you die right now.
It will only make me fell to good.
I hope you die right now.
It will only make me fell to good.
I hope you die right now.
It will only make me fell to good.
I hope you die right now.
I hope you die right now.

(Once upon your dead body)

The pain and loss of love is very real in that song. And I feel something about this song. However the next song is called Wake Up that is on my myspace site. It always lifts me up and makes me think of that special someone. :)

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:00:18 GMT

It is getting really had to find spare time lately. I seem to be so busy with everything, one good thing though is that I am finally over my cold... for the most part, I hope it is warmer tomorrow when I am out at the garden center. 1 - 9 for all of you that want to buy plants. :) I love plants, they are so cool, I have about 8 flowers now that are growing on my window hahaha, they are very nice looking too. I only wish I had a digital camera to take a pic for you. *RANDOM MOMENT* Oh! good song! *END RANDOM MOMENT* anyways, I should have a lot of time for the lovely young lady currently in my life next week. It should be fun just to see her face anyways, we have been putting off our dinner dates for far to long. We are both just really busy, her with her 50 billion jobs and me with full time, volleyball planing, MFC studying, etc, etc.

*deep breathe*
I am happy with me, OH! I got a good prospective slap in the face by a friend of mine. Dave said the following: "Everyone is 3 things, Needy, Need to be Needed, and Wanted. What are you in your relationship? Are you wanted or needed? Do you want her because you don't need her? Or do you need to feel needed by her? Or are you just needy?" Well I don't know about her, but I know I don't need her... I want... I choose to be with her. Because she doesn't care!! The following is how I mean that:

This is called "thank you": (CUT FOR LENGTH)

Thank you for not caring about my OWI convictions
Thank you for not caring about my past that I have told you
Thank you for not caring about how I just got dumped a little while ago
Thank you for not caring about how much better or worse you may be from the last
Thank you for not thinking I am trying to judge you
Thank you for not thinking that you are a rebound because you are not one
Thank you for not thinking that you have to try to be better than the last
Thank you for not thinking that you have to impress the friends of mine you meet
Thank you for not thinking that you have to show your body to me to turn me on
Thank you for being you
Thank you for showing you
Thank you for allowing no shame in yourself
Thank you for showing no shame is saying "I'm sorry"
Thank you for accepting my same sorry
Thank you for not judging me on anything I say or do
Thank you for keeping my secrets
Thank you for keeping who we are private
Thank you for not Needing, but Wanting
THANK YOU FOR NOT BEING A MIRANDA
Thank you for not being like every other ex I ever encountered
Thank you for giving me freedom
Thank you for not getting mad when I am out with my friends
Thank you for not telling me you hate me when I am drunk
Thank you for drinking with me
Thank you for being responsible with me
Thank you for giving me something to look up to
Thank you for sharing yourself
Thank you for having some of the same experiances I have had
Thank you for showing me that I am not alone
Thank you for you
Thank you for understanding why I never will say those words
Thank you for understanding why I seem closed off to everyone
Thank you for understanding why I want to fake happy at times
Thank you for understanding me
Thank you for understanding what music means

Oh, one day maybe I will share with you what I would like to share
However I am scared, however I can only say that I care about you
One day I will say those words, those words that you may want to hear from me
One day I will feel those words, but my heart is blocked, I choose you want you
However my heart is closed, it is slowly opening, you are in my dreams
You are maybe my actual dream. I am not sure...

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 05:08:14 GMT

Ummmm, a small sample of my keyboard with crappy bass and drums all played by me on the following site http://www.last.fm/music/Annidine , The total cut is about 30 seconds long but they start it at about second 10 - 20 or so. Anyways, in the future I will be editing and allowing all users to download the full versions of a few of the songs there. ummmmm, so yeah, enjoy the crap. It will get better with time, it only took me about 20 mins to put that 30 seconds together.

I will be keeping on going with the song, improving and changing the one that is on there to the full length. Remember to check out the story site first:
http://community.livejournal.com/annidine/

ummm, that is it from me hope you all are doing good.

The story of the forgoten letter....

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 22:17:17 GMT

So I was like give me a letter too, and Renee was like here is a B and I was like awesome, and then like I was oh I'll forget about this for like ever. *End Valley Girl*

Needless to say here is my late posting of my letter B:

Leave a comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you like starting with that letter. Post them in your journal and give out new letters to your commenters in turn. NO TAGBACKS ALLOWED, unless a commenter specifically requests to be given a letter.

Dagmar gave me the letter Q no S no A no B yes B

1. Becky
2. Baseball
3. Berries of the straw type aka strawberries ;p
4. Bubbles
5. Buddies
6. Blackhawks (GO CHICAGO!!)
7. Bears (GO CHICAGO!!)
8. Bullets
9. Beans
10. Beauty of waking to the woman of my dreams

And you all thought one of them would be boobies didn't you :p

Episode Two: This Bleeding Heart

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 05:28:30 GMT

Second post up
http://community.livejournal.com/annidine/

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 06:28:09 GMT

I think I am going to write a new song tonight. The emotions that I am experiancing tonight require it I think. Because I am confussed, my mind and heart are leading me into multipule directions at the moment and I don't know what type of song I will produce tonight. But in the same essense, that doesn't matter.

I have a choice before me tonight, and that will weigh upon all things that I will become. Wish me the best because tonight I am heading twards a new type of hell or a new blessing that will be all that I ever wanted in my life. Only time will tell but I feel that I need the support of my close friends. Here is a message for the people that mean something in my life:

Dagmar: Thank you for your awesome support and encouragement, please pray to your god for me... I will need it before things all unfold.

Diana: I love you, please stay with me throughout my life no matter what I chose and what will happen to me.

Jan: *hugs* You are a great friend and I just want to say thank you. I love you, as you are a great person.

I just got done....

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 16:56:06 GMT

reading a post in Dagmar's Myspace blog, it was about taking men that suck ass back. I never understood why women do that. Here is what I know though. Being the man that calls when he says he will, being the man that takes the free time when he can to be with the one he loves, being the man that will never want to make her cry, hurts just as much. We don't open up because of it, atleast I don't like to anymore. I feel for opening a few times, and get the same result. Loss, pain. I am still waiting for that one that will be there for only me, and it will come. Hell I am not really opening to Steph but I am seeing what she wants first. I am not talking about the first few months what I want thing, I am talking about after the third month. When that happens, I'll ask her, if I see her tonight. We shall see.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 02:33:19 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/annidine/

First post up.

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 04:11:41 GMT

Found this on my friend Cassie's site:

Tickle Me Emo Like tickle me Elmo, but emo! From Mad TV.

Just had to share it :) enjoy lol

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 06:40:33 GMT

So today is payday... yay... lol I am getting ready to start my plan in motion. :D it should be great. The only question is, which city should I do it in? I was thinking Wausau is to small to do it in. So Madison may be my best choice... but then again... ouch. Thinking about it more too, smaller areas could work. Bring the people into culture. Still you need people interested in it to show up in the first place. So I think the final choice would be Wausau. The starting goal ammount would probably be about 100,000. But I could get away with 10,000 if the place and time is right. To get that, would be about 100 dollars every two weeks saved up for 4 or so years. I'll be 28 by then :(

Oh well... we shall see.

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 00:46:01 GMT

I sure am shocked at how quickly my myspace page is filling up with my friends. lol I thought it would take them longer than that to notice I was on. The only people I looked up is chase, andrew, ron, and Erin. *shrug*

I remember hanging out with all of them just chillin having a beer. E was a little different to hang out with because I was dating her best friend at the time and when we broke up... she was one of the few that didn't listen to anyone else. A woman of honor she is. :) *HUGS TO ERIN!!*

So I basicly did nothing today, I even wanted to do laundry, but that is out of the question... I guess whatever happens happens. Alki class starts again tomorrow cause spring break is now over... awww man :( lol still I had a lot of fun this spring break. It was nice to finally do nothing and get stress off my back. I am sure it would be that way if I just had the full time job and that was it. :) Very good feelings seem to just gush over me from time to time. I love it. I love me. I love my good friends... there is one person that I do have to give props to. I will not meantion who she is or where I know her from or what her situation is. I just want to say, based on what she is going through and how another person is treating her... wow. You are awesome! *HUGS!* I wouldn't stay calm that is for sure :)

anyways, that is it from me latah!

Went out later last night

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 19:00:54 GMT

Had fun with my friends, we got kinda drunken so Jim allowed us to stay upstares in the appartment. Besides they wanted to see the place I worked at.

Meet a cute girl named Sara last night too. I think I'll give her a call, that is about it.

*hugs*

Updating starting for backstory

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 00:28:14 GMT

Go to: http://community.livejournal.com/annidine/

keep a watch on it if you want, because I am going to start it up soon and you may be lost if I don't develop a way to navigate from entry to entry easily. Which I probably will I am just lazy right now lol

Anyways, check it out, comment on it if you want. That is about it...

Thought this was cute:

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 18:14:52 GMT

How to make a Nens

Ingredients:

5 parts success

5 parts ambition

1 part leadership

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little wisdom if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Anyways, on top of that, this in another day off and I am enjoying spring break. Always fun to just do whatever, I am about to step outside for the first time today and enjoy the weather. I hope that it isn't cold like it was yesterday lol well yesterday wasn't cold just the damn wind. Still brightly shining sun, cleaned room, today... cleaning the car, getting my roller blades out again. I can actually breathe again! It is great... I never felt more alive from quiting smoking in my life! :)

*love peace joy*

Creating a community

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 00:53:31 GMT

I have decided to start a community here on live journal. It will contain my drawings, music, poems and story...

Here is the site: http://community.livejournal.com/annidine/

though there is nothing there at the moment, I will be updating it probably once a month with various pictures, songs, videos, and more. I will also be starting a paid account on it in a bit. That is so I can make it fully functional, at the moment it is simply there. But keep an eye on it. I think you all may like it... well I hope you will.

I'll notify you all when I post the first.... post lol.

The world is called Annidine.

and that is about all I can think of about it right now... I am going to get to work on it right now though :)

The process has begun

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 18:48:56 GMT

One by one they are getting cut off, I may have a lot of people mad at me but I need to do this. I need to change not only my lifestyle but who I deal with. If I am to go forward for myself I don't need people holding me back, helping me make wrong decisions. I am moving April 30th back to Edgar, in hopes to reconnect with not only myself but who I always useto strive to be.

I want to get that boat, I want to get that joy back. I am taking it back by force.

"Three friends are made, three lives are laughs and tears
Through years of school and play they share
As time stands still the days change into years
And future comes without a care.
But fate and skill and chances play their part
The wind of change leaves no good-bye
Three boys are men their ways have drawn apart
They tell their tales to justify."
~ Gentle Giant

I have three great friends that I miss dearly, and I no longer want to justify our seperation based on the idea that we are "to busy" I am going to get back together with Ron, Nick, and Andrew as much as I can. Our lives have changed, we are all men now, but I want to make time for others now. I am no longer runing away from those that I fear. I am facing them. Anyone who gets a txt message from me stating something this week, I am sorry... I don't need you. I will actually miss you but don't talk to me until you grow out of what you are doing.

You will get only one chance to come back. Keep it till your ready.

"Sinking through layers of untouched oblivion
soaking from spirits but still far too dry.
-------------------------------------------
Nine words create an oblivion ocean:
Dad tell me, will I be dead very long?
Losing all I lived for. Losing all I fought for. "
~Pain Of Salvation

I am tired of losing all I lived and fought for... due to the soaking of spirits. It doesn't mean I'll ever stop drinking, but I will stop being dry...

Please make up your mind before I hope you DIE....

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 08:10:05 GMT

I have seen a lot in my mind before I actually find out about it. It shows how I have been used and shit on. It makes me sad.

"I can only assume that the tickets to hell are really expensive
and for some reason it’s important to be first in line
someone sells us God
in 2-for-1 with Shame
someone sells us War
and the marketing
looks just the same
someone sells us Fear
on TV each day
a shape for every taste
if the flavor’s right
we gladly pay
all on sale
we’re all on sale... "
~Pain Of Salvation

People think that they can keep on taking and never give back. I am tired of those games. If there was some way to eliminate those people from my life, and they know who they are, I would. But I keep them to keep taking advantage of me. However, I think I am going to get rid of those people soon, all of them. Because as it says in my title. Make up your mind before I hope you die... I am going to sort you out and kill off the cancers. I will notify the people of there elimination from my life, and possibly the reasons for such. I don't think anyone on here has to worry about it, I think it will be good for me to move past those people.

Today I had to not only defend a great friend of mine from one of them, but I had to then defend myself in turn! Why oh why do people have to try to twist things around and try to make me look like the bad person. Yes I have made some stupid decisions, but I don't backstab in such a harsh manner. I don't try to utterly humiliate others. They are whores in sheeps clothing.... sell sell sell, stab stab stab...